I grew up going to school with my sister, but I don't know why, but all my classmates especially like to play with her. Although I also hang out with them, but always feel that they take special care of my sister, for example, every time shopping is a large group of people go, but no one ever asked me if I want to join. This makes my heart especially cold, as if the whole world is around her, and my confusion but no one noticed, everyone is still the same, which makes me quite difficult. After I started middle school, my circle of friends was a little bigger, but I still kept to myself. I had a bit of an inferiority complex knowing that I was average looking and no one played with me. My friends weren't very warm to me either, and my relationships were such a mess that I couldn't even tell what a real friend was. Once I became friends with one of my classmates, I always wanted to stick to her, and I felt uncomfortable when others played games with her, and when I saw her playing with others, I just walked away silently.
I found myself always love to stare at her every move, know that there is no need, but still can not help but be sad, looking at other people's edge of good friends can only secretly sad. I also always like to compare myself with others, looking for their own shortcomings, than to compare, but I'm learning from others, the style that I like to throw away. Now I am really confused.
Hugs~
First of all, you were hanging out with your sister, her friends were nice to her and would care if she wanted to go out with them, but didn't ask you. Actually, yeah, it's your sister's social circle, not exactly yours. If you want them to care more about you too, you'll have to interact with them more and get closer before they'll slowly notice you.
You're the younger sister in the family, maybe your parents are busy and you spend more time with your older sister. Your sister has a lively personality and you're quieter in comparison, but that doesn't mean you're like that with everyone, does it? If you have real friends, you might become more cheerful.
Let's talk about appearance, it's not everything~ I have a friend who isn't really good looking, but I especially appreciate him, and he almost became my boyfriend. Because his charisma attracts me a lot, and some small defects are nothing. I'm not saying you have to change yourself, but I want to tell you that looks don't mean everything.
In addition, because you have been feeling less friends, so when you meet people who talk to each other, it is easy to stick, hoping to always be together, to drive away the feeling of loneliness. But even the best friend also need personal space ah, you take her as all, but she has her own circle of people, not only you a friend, but also have to take care of other people's feelings. People usually have a few good friends, you have not met is not your bad, may be able to understand you too few people, they have to be especially destiny to enter your heart.
You have your own uniqueness, there's no need to lose your own style just to emulate someone else, you deserve to be liked in your own right dear ♡
(Please bear with me if I'm wrong)