Every time I meet someone new and add WeChat friends, I don't even have the slightest desire to get to know them, whether it's a guy or a girl, which makes me feel even more suited to be alone. When I chat with the opposite sex, I am always imagining things, but in reality, I rarely talk to them, and I hardly have a few good friends of the opposite sex around me. When I am in public, I feel more and more lonely, and I always feel like I am alone, as if I am separated from other people by a wall. I'm a girl, 20 years old, still in college.
Hi, buddy!
A 20 year old female college student, just seeing you in this capacity makes me feel super envious! You're in the ivory tower right now, and you're the lucky one in the eyes of many.
I'm guessing that your college life was probably like most schools in that you were mainly in a small circle of dorms? The concept of classes isn't as strong, so people are relatively independent, which is actually common in college.
But come to think of it, people are born to be lonely. Eileen Chang said something similar, even if surrounded by a group of people, she would still feel lonely. Great philosophers like Schopenhauer and Nietzsche even lived loneliness as the norm. So I think what you are feeling is completely normal.
I especially understand how it is possible for you, in the prime of your life, not to look forward to a sweet, sweet relationship. That's probably why you came here to pour out your heart. How can you meet the right person if you can't even raise your interest in dealing with the opposite sex? This is probably the root of your inner loneliness!
I've come from that stage too, and I've experienced all of what you're experiencing. You can still use weibo to chat and meet new people, so if you don't want to talk to the opposite sex around you, at least you have the opportunity to communicate online. I didn't have this condition back then, my own face value is ordinary, and I don't have any specialty, I can't attract the opposite sex at all, so I was especially lonely at that time too.
But you're different. You can talk to the opposite sex on WeChat whenever you want. You say you think too much, but it's okay. It's good to think more, to avoid trouble in advance, and maybe even to make things go more smoothly. Don't worry, just let go of your imagination!
You can also try to get in touch with the opposite sex around you, as long as you take the first step and say the first "Hi", then it will become more and more natural. We all know it's hard to get started, but once you do, it's a lot easier.
Whether it's friends of the opposite sex on WeChat or in reality, even if you can't become a boyfriend, it's still good to have one or two close friends.
I truly wish you the best of luck in finding the one for you soon!