Life often seems to feel meaningless and I always find it hard to get a real emotional connection?
I've tried so many things hard, but that empty feeling inside me can never be filled - loneliness, isolation, no one to listen, no companionship, no like-minded people. Maybe it's just me, but these feelings are so real. The girls I liked already had boyfriends, and I often felt unattractive, undereducated, and lacking in courage. Feelings of inferiority always haunt me, and efforts always seem to be in vain? I still have a long way to go, I have dreams, but realizing them requires a lot of accumulation: study, contacts ...... But now I have nothing, so I insist for a few days and then become disillusioned again. I can't stand loneliness, especially the feeling of having no one to rely on when things get tough. My friends can't exactly help me, nor can my family, after all, I'm 21 years old, not a child. I look back at what I've done. Haha, the thought of trying so hard, as if there was no end to it, and it was hard to grasp, I started to attack myself. I can feel myself running away and withdrawing, and although it's better than it used to be, I still get caught up in these emotions and can't get out of them. Today was another day of decadence. Ugh, the meaning of life, I can't really seem to see it, and I don't know how to find it for myself.
Hi! First of all, I'm sending you a warm hug through the space. It's really great that you are aware of your emotional state, because awareness is the first step to change. In fact, from your description, I can feel the low self-esteem, lack of self-confidence and self-denial deep inside you, which you may not be fully aware of. This makes you extra sensitive and very concerned about how others see you. To protect yourself from harm, you may unconsciously alienate yourself from relationships. Try to think about this: is the reason behind your feeling that no one is helpful or dependable because you don't accept that imperfect version of yourself? If you can't accept yourself, you may think that others won't accept such a you either. The first thing for you to do right now is to learn better self-acceptance and develop self-confidence. You can recognize yourself by making a list of your self-advantages to see both shortcomings and bright spots; keep a gratitude journal to help boost your sense of self-worth. Cultivate more interests and loves and increase the number of things you can control. When you like yourself completely from the inside out, you have the confidence and confidence to fulfill your inner needs through your own efforts, because the person who understands you best is you, and no one else is obligated to always respond to you. The support you crave in a relationship, you need to learn to give to yourself first. In the face of loneliness, you may be suffering because you feel that loneliness is negative and represents isolation. But in fact, loneliness is an emotion that everyone experiences, and it reminds us to talk to our heart. The meaning of life is defined by yourself and need not be compared to others. I'm Lily Little Ears from the Answer Library, the world and I love you.