When I think back to when I was a kid, my parents seldom cared about me, and I didn't like to go out, I stayed at home all day until I graduated from elementary school.
When I started middle school, I started living with my parents.
It's really stressful, they read about grades every day, they don't move, they say I'm not as good as other people, and they even say that people like me are wasting their money studying, so they might as well go sheep herding! My grades were pretty good at first, but the further I got, the more pressure I felt. Now that I'm going to be a junior in high school, I'm especially worried that I won't be able to get into high school.
Sometimes the negativity is so overwhelming that you even think about lightening your life.
I really can't stand the way my parents are.
Now I'm still very introverted, have low self-esteem, am insecure, especially sensitive, and always concerned about what others think.
I keep feeling like someone is staring at me when I walk, like someone is laughing at me ...... What should I do? Can't hold out much longer!
Hello, my friend. I'm Fuji, the whale social worker.
Sending you a warm hug first~ I totally get what you're going through right now.
You are now in the critical period of further education, academic pressure is already high, coupled with your parents' excessive attention to grades, it is easier to make you anxious and low self-esteem. This kind of low self-esteem and sensitivity is often a temporary reaction caused by the environment, not your own problem. Regarding stress and emotions, we can try some methods to adjust.
Make a study plan. Action is the best way to relieve anxiety, and when you follow a plan step by step, you will be more grounded and much less stressed. Focus on specific study tasks, such as breaking down your plan by subject or knowledge point. You can prepare a small notebook, write down the tasks every day, and cross off one item as you complete it, which is super fulfilling.
Find someone to talk to appropriately. Believe me, many of your classmates around you have similar worries, and it will be much easier for you to confide in them together. To your parents, you can try to express your ideas and plans, and ask them not to put too much pressure on you, lest it will backfire. When you take the initiative to communicate, your parents see your efforts and your attitude may slowly change.
Being too concerned about what other people think, on the contrary, will tie your own hands. Just like running a race, if you always look around, it is difficult to run a good performance. Why don't you focus on your own goals, make a little progress every day, and slowly get closer to your ideal, and you will find yourself more and more confident.
Good luck (whale social worker 🐋)